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My Kind Of Story

I don't know what's this, some kind of confession? No. Just so people know why I acted this way.

So I've been asked a lot about why I never visited the dormitory after graduation. The reason, it was because I don't want to meet with some people if I go there to be honest. I've been through hell in that place, in that damn school, people just don't know how much I suffered mentally.

I've been bullied, yeah that sounds cliche, right? Cliche it is, but that was the truth. Maybe not physically because I never got hit, and nobody punched me in the face, or no one kicked my ass, but I always got verbal abuse from those people.

Is verbal abuse not the kind of bullies? If it's not, then I don't know what the bullies are.

I don't get it why those people are nasty to me, what did I do wrong I don't know that. I mean like when you're nasty and be mean to someone it must be because he makes you uncomfortable, he annoys you, or he disturb you. But I swear I never did those things. I always mind my own business.

I'm kind of shy, kind of introvert, you name it. I'd rather sit alone and read my book than hanging around. Then why they bullied me then? Was it just because I was an easy target? I don't know. I really don't know.

And you know the worst part? I got verbal abuse from some teachers too. I didn't really care about what I got from the other students, but them _the teacher_ I really can't stand that. Some of you might say it was just an advice or just a critique they given to me, but it's not. You don't know what they said to me when I'm alone with them. And it's tear me apart.

Was that terrible things happen in the past? Of course it was. Then why don't just come and visit now? I can't, because some people are still there. Maybe not as many as used to be when I was still school and live in that place. But some people are still there.

And I don't want that horrible experience to happen again. I've had enough. Really, my mind, my sanity, my wits, really had enough.

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